Jissie julle, stilte en afstand is `n ewel! Ek mis julle onsettend baie!

Hey! I'm back! Livin' long, livin' strong! Jissie I missed you guys! I finally had some spare time in which I could come and sit down to talk to you (both). Anyhoo... Flippit. Life is busy. No time I only have class 3 days a week, but the other 3 are spent on assignments and the last one for work... So ja like I said, busy.

Things are looking good though God has blessed me with a mind wise enough to know when to work and when to play. Eventhough the latter one is something that har rarely happened over the past 3 weeks.

Now for something completely of subject, but why I'm actually back on to say is that I am now finally focused on better things. Relationships have now found their place and rank in my life and I can concentrate on things that really matter. but there still is this thing with someone going on(more than one someone actually.) we'll bring that up when you ask me to.

I'm just here to say that everything is rockin' and it's all good. Ek mis julle so so baie!

Hallo Sports fans! Guess what? Introducing Mr Ruhan Janse van Rensburg! The newest addition to our countries allready outstanding student faculty! I will from now on I will be your new English teacher!
That's right I got in to study! My dream has been realised! WOOHOOOOOO!!!!
I know alot of you don't even know that I applied but I am so happy that I just want to tell all of you!

Wowie sports fans! it's allmost time... In less then 11 hours the most important test of my life will stare my squarely in the face and say : " You can't do this" And I'll say... with God on my side I can move mountains. And you are no match for me! MMMMMWHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

And then I will fullfill my destiny !

It's decided... I'm on my own from here on out. I keep looking for the right person and end up hurting myself in the process. So I think it's time to start following my own advice and just... stay...away... And wait for God to bring us together.

How does that sound? Sounds amazingly simple, doesn't it? let's hope it turns out that way. LOL.

WooHoo! Hey people. Guess what, you probably don't know this but I applied at Tuks to study English Education for GR10- Gr12. I didn't get approval. But today the people of UP called me to say that they are short of they're quota of people needed! Which means if still got a writing(fighting) chance!

But test is on Saturday at 7:30. A bit early I know but to be able to fulfill a lifes dream I'll get up at 2! For those of you who know me you'll know that music and languages are my life! And this would be like the best thing to happen to me since like...well... forever!

Dancing in the rain, keeping it locked inside...
And I feel no shame, keeping it deep behind...
you're eyes.

You look beautiful, with the water around your feet.
The way your hair curls in all directions
Makes me feel complete...ly lost.


These are just a few lyrics of my new song
Still working on it.

Any comments... Feel free.

I feel kinda Emo today. Don't know why,

Well guess I do but don't think it's the right time to be talking about it.

Not to---day.

To my two potential readers... What do you call that feeling where you feel good, but have nothing to say... While feeling this immense sadness? Kind of warm and cold at the same time?
No questions, only answers, please.

Any feedback would be much appreciated!

Crazyness is what it's all about... I just realized that. Crazy people enjoy life so much more than sane people. Honestly. I've got this one friend of mine in front of me... She is like so freaking out from a caffeine high (no cola allowed). And she is so enjoying life right now...
So everyone can't all us crazy people just get along? Enough with the love. Let's spread the crazyness

I'm leavin' but don't worry, I'll be back again.
You're always right here.
You're grievin' but don't hurry to your pack of friends
I'll stay it's clear.

The one you knew, from your love I grew into
- complete and whole
And the way I justify it's my way to control
- love everlasting.

I see your sweater rests upon your bed,
reminds me of home.
Can be any better than it is in my head
I'm blinded by roam.

The one you knew, from your love I grew into
- complete and whole
And the way I justify it's my way to control
- love everlasting.

There's only one way... I know how to do this
Stay here and help me get through this
and I'll always be
The one you knew, from your love I grew into
- complete and whole
And the way I justify it's my way to control
- love everlasting

Lyrics by Joshua Radin.
Awesome...

Insecurities suck.

Ultimate insecurity sucks ultimately

Ja-ja Ek weet ek't belowe die instalment gaan gaan oor bestrawwing, verhoudings en self-bestrawwende verhoudings, maar vir nou is daar iets anders op die agenda.

Ek's `n ou. Soos seriously... `n Dude, Man, Van die masculine variasie as jy wil... Julle kry die idee. En dit meen (in alle korrekte respekte, tuurlik) dat ek van girls (of die fairer geslag) hou.
Kyk nê, ek's al deur baie in my lewe wat sopas sy derde dekade betree het, veral wat verhoudings betref( let wel, die maak my nie `n kenner of wysgeleerde nie, net `n mens wat homself baie bllotgestel het aan die arduous perellous wereld van meisies en wat dit behels.)
En as so braaf kan wees om wysheid uit te deel( die bietjie wat ek al opgegaar het) sal dit dit wees... Moenie.

Dis reg, bly weg. Jy mors jou tyd. Wag vir Die Een. Dit is die moeite werd, dink ek. Want ek sit nou met al die baggage wat net seer maak. Dit vreet al die opregte emosie en belewenisse wat ek wil gee aan Die Een.

Want daar is nou die amazing girl (what's new) Met wie ek goed deel... Tyd, Verlede, Geheime, Emosies, so baie goed, wat ek al met ander gedeel het omdat hulle OOK mos die een was. En dit buig my(nie breek nie, dit is nie toegelaat nie!) want sy is soooo special. Nou's dit op die punt waar ek als moet herevalueer(?) Om weer daai uniekheid in haar te vind. Want sy het dit! Ek weet sy het.

En nog `n tak in die gedagtelyn, as jy deel, deel met iemand wat regtig vir jou iets beteken, nie iemand wat jy dink, of wil hê moet nie. Net die spesiale mense. En wanneer jy deel, moenie mt ou voorbeeld volg en dit doen uit die soeke vir simpatie nie. Doen dit omdat jy wil hê daardie persoon moet jou leer kien vir wie jy is en waar jy vandaan kom, asook waarheen jy oppad is as jy van plan is om hulle saam te vat.

So... recap. Dit het eintlik die voorafgespreekde topics gedek nê? Maar nou goed dan, dan is dit afgehandel.

Okay, stop die lorrie! dis genoeg vir nou. Sal later weer `n draai kom gooi. Geniet die dag. En onthou al voel `n nie verlief nie, God ons Pappa Vader het jou meer lief as wat jy kan verwerk!

" Welcome to the world of blogging, we hope you enjoy your stay! We have provided you with everything to keep you at your highest comfort level possible! " Or at least that's what I hoped it would be like!I'm scared! Who are these people and what do want from me? Why are they reading my personal thoughts and feelings...? Oh... oh... that's right, 'cause I put them there!

This will not be one of the most interesting blogs, but I feel that it will be something with which others can relate. Something with which to meander(always wanted to use that word) the sunday afternoons awayBecause in the end that's ll that matters, relating. So... feel free to comment, add, edit, delete(made that one up) or do anything to my blog. What a weird word...

Hi daar slaaiblaar! Ek wil net hê dat julle almal moet weet jy (ja, JY! help nie om oor jou skouer te loer nie) is besonders uniek! Pappa Vader het jou gemaak om jy jouself te wees. Niemand kan jou afbreek sonder jou toestemming nie. Niemand(dis reg), niemand sal ooit jou besonderse enkelvoudigheid van jou af kan ontneem nie, nie eers daai outjie wat vir jou gelag het toe jy jou roomys gedrop het toe jy 6 was nie. (Nee dit het nie met my gebeur nie, dis net `n teoretiese voorstelling! maar dan moet jy ook verstaan dat sonder daardie einste Pappa Vader kan jy nie wees wie jy moet nie. Sonder hom aan die stuur het jy geen wind in jou seile nie, dis perpetuele skemer vir jou my vriend, Kaat hom toe om jou te lei en die son kan skyn( Dit meen nou tuurlik nie dat als sonskyn en rose gaan wees nie, maar met Hom in jou hart kan jy werklike blydskap waardeur! Selfs in die donkerste verhoudings (ja, verhoudings...) Maar meer daaroor volgende keer... In die volgende episode... Bestrawwing, Verhoudings en selfbestrawwende verhoudings! Dit en vele meer